I was Young when I met my Angel back in 1986 in Dulwich Hill High School in Sydney Australia. I was one of these kids who did what they wanted to do and got into trouble almost everyday for my actions. I came across My Angel in a Milk Bar which used to be next door to the school we both went to and notice her when I was buying a milk shake; she was standing with a friend of hers who would later turn out to be one of my best friends also. I was scared to say anything to My Angel that day because I thought she would tell me to get lost.
about 3-4 months went by and somehow I ended up being with my angel, we would mainly talk while within the school grounds because she also had an older sister and a younger brother in the same school so she didn’t want to get into trouble with one of them telling her parents she was with a boy who was somewhat bad. I knew from the first time I saw my angel in the milk bar that I loved her and to clear the air, I still love her just as much to this day.
I remember a day so clearly that both my angel and I were kissing and holding each other so loving on a small retaining wall which was in the school. There was no one around to see us so we didn’t care. It was wonderful and it was a memory I kept inside me for so long. We had our little on and off periods during out time in school and I always seemed to go back to my angel, mainly because I loved her with every part of my heart and soul, I used to joke about selling my soul to satin because of the music I listen to in high school, but the truth is I gave my soul to my angel when I first saw her at that milk bar.
My Angel was also the first person I cried for when I was at school and the last, I got upset and cried and our closest friend mentioned before saw me and told my angel I was upset and crying because she wouldn’t kiss and hug me in public. I wasn’t worried about who saw us because I loved her and didn’t care who knew, even if it was her family, but out of respect for my angel I always did what she asked of me and made sure we didn’t get caught together. This was hard because of how I felt for her, my friends finally found out after almost 2 years how I felt for my angel and man did they give me a hard time about it. You know what boys can be like, my friends at school were more worried about how many girls they could sleep with, I was more worried about staying with my angel until the end of time.
I had and still have a lot of respect for my angel and she knows this because back in the school days she was surprised that I never once tried to make love with her. She knew a few times when I would get excited when we kissed because she felt it and was always amazed that I could control myself with her. I always wanted to make love to her but promised myself this would only happen with us once we got married.
Then one day we drifted apart mainly because I had gone back to the U.S and lost touch with her. I lived there for a few years and while I was there did not have a girlfriend the whole time. I was still in love with my angel and I didn’t want to betray they love for her. 2 years later when I arrived back I looked for her everywhere we used to hang around and ran into her one day coming off a bus, I ran away so fast I almost took myself out with a pole I had just missed and my angel went in the opposite direction. We didn’t stop to say hello or anything we both just ran. And that was the last time I saw her for a long time.
It’s now 15 years later and I am working in a recruitment company in Sydney and our old friend has come in for an interview with one of the consultants. She was on her way out when I ran into her. We started to talk about the old days and I let out my feelings for My Angel and told her that I still love her and have never stopped loving her. She said she felt the same way and always knew that one day our paths would cross. 2 weeks after that little meeting I finally get to see my angel and my emotions take over completely. I traveled to the Gold Coast and met her on the second day I was here. I was an emotional mess the day before because she hadn’t come to get me from the airport and was worse when she finally came and she looked exactly the same as 15 years ago. Nothing had changed.
So from that time on I flew up to Surfers every fortnight to catch up with my angel. I told her that my love for her had never died and that I had buried it deep inside me for the past 15 years and some how managed to keep it in control. I was completely shocked when she told me she had loved me from day one when we met in the milk bar and had never stopped loving me.
We started the relationship again even though she was now married. I would not normally get involved with someone who is married, but this was just not someone, she was the girl I have loved since I was a teen and could never let her go, she was the only girl I could say I Love You and mean it from the deepest part of my heart and soul.
We talked and she told me what’s been going on and I knew that her married life was not all crack up and happy, I could always feel a sense of despair when I spoke with her on the phone and when I was with her, I could see the sadness in her eyes when we would talk face to face, she didn’t have to tell me she was in a bad marriage I somehow knew. She then told me that she has been in somewhat of a living hell within her marriage as she was always being put down and was always being controlled in what she could do, feel and say. These talks happened in Sept 08 and even to this day.
Her husband knows we have been seeing each other and things between us are intimate. She asked for a divorce but he seems to think that it’s not needed and that they can work on their problems and try and fix what went wrong, she made it clear to him that she no longer loves him and hasn’t for the last 5 years. She has also told him that she wants to be with me and how she feels about me.
The situation has gotten so bad the husband has decided to use the 2 kids they have as a way to keep her within the house and she is also so scared of leaving that she is not sure what she can do, I’ve re-assured her that I am here for her in any way she needs me to be here and will protect her from what ever may happen, I’m not trying to be her saviour or Knight in shinning armour. I want her to know I am here because of my love for her and because I know I am needed by her.
The moral of this story is to tell others out there if you love someone, and I mean really LOVE someone tell them and make sure you don’t let them go. Don’t be a fool and deny that person your love, let them hold it, cherish it, live in it, and be a part of your life. We only get one shot at true and every lasting love so don’t blow it. I regret not telling my angle back then that I love her. I think to myself that if I had said something before we would both be somewhere else rather then the mess we are in now.
I’m still waiting for my angel to come home one day and to stay with me for the rest of ours lives and will hold on for as long as I need to. I do sometimes think that I should give up but then I realise that if I do then everything I have gone through to get to where my angel and I are would be a waste of time.
My love for my angel is so strong I left my life in Sydney back in Sept 08 and also left my 6 year old son there and have not seen him since, I’ve spoken to him a few times since and have had problem after problem with his mom because I chose to move to Queensland to be closer to the only
